On My Mind

I am  writer. I like writing about everything, but lately I haven't had the same self-encouragement to write. I love writing and I know I want to writer for a living when I'm older, whether it be obituary's or novels I just enjoy writing. I am terrified that I have lost my muse because whenever I write something I will work on it for maybe an hour until I realize how much I hate what I'm writing. I used to be able to write and love everything about what I write and love it and everyone who reads it loves it but now I can't even show my friends what I write and I have writers block. 

Recently I went to a book event where there were panels of authors, publishers, and literary agents. I asked them if I should just give up on writing because I thought it just wasn't for me. They all told me the same thing, I shouldn't give up because everyone at some point thinks that what they're are writing is the most horrible thing in the world and that it should be burned. It takes a strong person to continue working diligently until their manuscript is gold. I believe that I can apply this to everything in life. When something doesn't go your way don't give up because if the person who was twice as deep as you are in self hatred could get out of the hole you can too. All the authors there went through the same experience. 

Rachel Hawkins, author of Rebel Belle and Hex Hall, said that all of her books that have been or are going to be published made her feel like she should give up writing and that she was a bad a writer, but she kept on reminding herself that A) she wasn't a bad writer for knowing what she was writing was bad and B) what she was writing was only a first draft and it could only get better. Michelle Hodkin, author of the Mara Dyer trilogy said that her book went through three rewrites until she finally found a good ending.